Punishment..

 So he uprooted our family and everything that mattered to me for punishment. He said my unhappiness now was how he's always felt. I built him back up, paying for everything myself while he bought truck after truck, boat after boat, and tool after tool. He told me tonight that he was unhappy. I believe it's because I handled everything without his being in control. Now that he's taken my ability to pay everything away and my home and security away and he's now working 7 days a week and is never home and never has time for me or the kids or anything that needs to be done around here.. he's happy. My love language is Time spent, he has no time for me and does not want to unless I'm fulfilling his witch is physical touch. like BRO, if you aren't meeting my needs and have no time or want to spend with me then why in hell would I want to touch you when even touching you leads to you getting what you need but Never me.. I'm over this and yet he's screwed Us over so bad that there is no way out and he isn't man enough to fix the problem he made simply because he's happy so who cares about me or our kids. I Hate Relationships

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